Today Doctor J is on call. This month he is on Trauma which is a Q3 rotation. On a Q3 rotation one is on call every third day. On these days he starts at about 5:30 am, works a full day at the hospital, sleeps (or sometimes doesn't sleep) at the hospital and comes home the next morning between 9:00am and and 12:00pm.
When Doctor J gets a break from the action, I try to stop by for a visit and bring him dinner. Tonight I was almost there, dinner in hand, when Doctor J got a page. There was a trauma coming in and he was not going to be able to step out and meet me. I felt a rush of emotions, but let me break it down simply for you and explain my three reaction phases.
Reaction one: Frustration and maybe even a tear or two. I can't believe this is happening! I put together a lovely dinner and all I wanted was a few precious minutes with J.
Reaction two: PERSPECTIVE. Someone is suffering from a trauma and that person is not me. PERSPECTIVE.
Reaction three: Refer back to my post on expectations. Set realistic ones! It is important to keep in mind in future situations of the sort, that being on call means exactly what is says. One could be called in at any moment. So I need to keep in mind that if I do want to try and visit Doctor J, I am doing so at my own risk.
So, back at our apartment I was feeling a little disappointed and then I got a text. "I am so sorry, I love you and remember we will laugh about this one day." I now sit here with a smile on my face knowing we WILL laugh about this one day